Refund

Went from wanting a refill to a refund
A refill of your love, turns out it was never real
So a refund of my time love and patience
Could be the best deal
but that’s something that will never take place
so therefore its just learning how
To gracefully bow out
Even though the hurt in me wanna scratch his eyes out
Punch him maybe kick him one time or two
but the love inside of me never want to see him hurt. Actually,
I wanna Hug him and Kiss him one time or two
nobody said it would be easy, but why it gotta be so hard?
So how did I get to needing a refund and not a refill
Hours long conversations to none at all
Telling me I was his world To having no feelings at all
But if I get to dwelling on the past I’d get nowhere at all
Crying everyday when I should be smiling everyday
I’m getting so much better letting the hurt go
I was giving you my all but had to wait for you just to get nothing at all
frustrations of missing you waiting on THAT day
My promises was never broken they were just slightly delayed
Just to prove my fears were right and I meant nothing at all still,
silly me because he said he loved me
I fought thru it all the lies the cheating the pain and hurt
Ten toes down, solid
I won’t let you need or want for nothing
But if you shaky and talking crazy ima freeze up
Words hurt yes but when The actions match those hurtful words
A pain that can’t be described
I’m realizing some love battles Just can’t be won
So now I’m at the point where I don’t want a refill or even a refund
But I love you