Memories

Be telling them like:
 👀LOOK !!! You either with me or against me
They straight tell me:
“I’m against you”
🤦🏽‍♀️Smh my own worst enemy 😩
“Ima Come out of nowhere make you cry angry and sad”
But Im tryna move forward don’t want to think about what I had
“I could come back and hit you with the joy laughs all the good times”
Yes, I would like that so please be nice
“I’m always nice I’m beautiful, I’m truthful, I’m the realest”
So why torture me with the hurtful feelings?
“I’m the balance that you need you gotta take the good with the bad”
I’ve been the good to the bad why do I have to relive it?
“To remember who you are and who you don’t want to be”
But I know who I am and love who I’m becoming
“ But It’s me that keep all that in tact”
🧐hmmm
“ the remember me’s keep you from repeating the same pain twice
Well, it should and if you listen the first time it would”
Kinda makes sense
“ I know, I’m the balance that you need gotta take the good with the bad”
You said that already
“Yeah, but you didn’t listen, you questioned ME,
But...
“There’s no but’s.. if I leave, I’m going to take all Of it with me
the bad of course but certainly the good.. you have too plenty of good to
worry about the little of bad”
😌you’re right
“ I know, I’m the balance that...
Yea yea 🙄
“Question is are you with me or against me?”

Refund

Went from wanting a refill to a refund
A refill of your love, turns out it was never real
So a refund of my time love and patience
Could be the best deal
but that’s something that will never take place
so therefore its just learning how
To gracefully bow out
Even though the hurt in me wanna scratch his eyes out
Punch him maybe kick him one time or two
but the love inside of me never want to see him hurt. Actually,
I wanna Hug him and Kiss him one time or two
nobody said it would be easy, but why it gotta be so hard?
So how did I get to needing a refund and not a refill
Hours long conversations to none at all
Telling me I was his world To having no feelings at all
But if I get to dwelling on the past I’d get nowhere at all
Crying everyday when I should be smiling everyday
I’m getting so much better letting the hurt go
I was giving you my all but had to wait for you just to get nothing at all
frustrations of missing you waiting on THAT day
My promises was never broken they were just slightly delayed
Just to prove my fears were right and I meant nothing at all still,
silly me because he said he loved me
I fought thru it all the lies the cheating the pain and hurt
Ten toes down, solid
I won’t let you need or want for nothing
But if you shaky and talking crazy ima freeze up
Words hurt yes but when The actions match those hurtful words
A pain that can’t be described
I’m realizing some love battles Just can’t be won
So now I’m at the point where I don’t want a refill or even a refund
But I love you

Message: Shine Baby Shine

Sometimes we are set in place to be the light to brighten up someone else’s darkness
Once your purpose is complete stay strong and continue to move forward
There could be someone else in need,
Never worry about who will be your light when your times are dark
God knows what he is doing, just keep the faith, because He knows
Your light is strong enough and bright enough to shine for others and doing so won’t
Even dim your own light
 Shine Baby Shine

Beautiful Sounds

Music is the only thing that calms me
    You’re my music in human form
turn it up
      Heartbeat of drums
  My body the guitar
      Keep strumming
Steady motion
    Playing for keeps
this sounds so beautiful
What a beautiful sound
   I can do this A Capella
 Include a touch of your Ad Libitum
I’m a Music junkie your #1 fan

Tonight
 This a special kind of duet
melodic tunes going all night
Turn this up... wait
Slow motion for me
Let’s feel every melody
         deep in our souls
 I bet the neighbors won’t even complain
They Can hear this ballad
sounds so beautiful what a beautiful sound
Slow motion fast pace
break
Hear the magic in the music?
  You and I intertwined into one
Hear the magic in the music?
You and I so tuned in sound like a solo
that’s the magic in the music
See what you do to me
High notes as we reach the climax
Never ending beautiful sounds
we got them on repeat

Dear Mama

‪This one is a tough one for me Happy Heavenly Mother’s Day to the greatest woman I know

My Mama I thank God for you everyday and I thank you for all the love,hugs, advice, encouragement, just for EVERYTHING I loved you from the womb to ♾ and beyond You taught me everything except how to live without you not knowing all along you was preparing me in many ways

and although you can never be prepared for such a huge loss I see exactly what you were doing and I thank you again for all the moments thank you for teaching me and blessing my kids with your love, effort, time and knowledge I will love you forever and I miss you so ‬much 😘😘

Dear Mama
I love you
            I miss you
    You are the best
 I love you deeply
                   Thank you 😊

Who sent you?

Who sent you?
   Things get to leaking
when you get to speaking.
   feeling like too much
when you start to touch
noo..
   stop...
please
don’t stop
I can’t get enough
The vibration of your tone send tingles down my spine
Chills up my back
I’m going out of my mind
   Soul snatching
Never felt anything like this
   This is amazing, breathtaking, stupendous
Who sent you?
     The most euphoric feeling in the world
Next level cloud nine
  OFFICIAL

Had my mind before you had my body
  Had my love before you had my heart
Something that I just knew
Cuz boy
When I got to leaking
when you started speaking
Only question in my mind was
Who sent you?

Eventually

‪ Eventually
       I Will go
and be gone
no coming back,
the heart that skips a beat for you
will somehow manage to beat correctly
for me
Eventually
 I will no longer accept partial love
From here on out it’s
all or nothing,
 but gladly,
I’ll take nothing over being neglected and rejected..
without me
  you’ll always feel an emptiness
a void no other can fill ‬
No matter how hard you try
  Eventually
You’ll realize my love is true
You’ll miss me
You’ll need me, want me
You’ll txt me to come,
 but, it won’t go thru
Number didn’t change but the way I love me did
   Eventually
I’ll see

Side effects of YOU

Satisfaction, wetness, frustration,
 love, calmness, tears, smiles,laughter,
comfort, hurt..
 but somehow I still gotta have two doses
 knowing these are the
side effects of YOU..
 Anger, happiness, loss of sleep,
butterflies, excitement, ecstasy, fulfillment,
sweet dreams, beautiful nightmares
baby these are ALL  from the
side effects of YOU
Not tryna overdose off your tenderness
Life seem so rough with out it
Got me feeling like a fiend I need it I want it
I gotta have it now, later today and tomorrow
cuz yesterday was amazing I seen stars, rainbows,
Fireworks, simply magic... hallucinations, daydreams, chills,
Withdrawal,
Side effects of YOU...

Let’s ride

It never ends
 even in its ending,
 an unstoppable flow
    we’re just a flow.... unstoppable.
Destination?
    #Forever,
I heard the sky is the limit,
   Not for me, it’s only the beginning.
We get lost traveling at the speed of light,
     slow down
we can’t lose if we cruise...so
 Let’s ride
    Patience is key
Push to start that’s Trust so,
Let’s make it a smooth one
bumps in the road
we swerving every one
 Communication is love
Comprehension is next level
Love in our eyes
 hand in hand
Top down
  Music on blast
stars in the sky
Baby
 Let’s ride